A Training Schedule

So someone asked me recently how the training was coming and what kind of schedule I was using. I didn't know how to respond and felt like a deer in the headlights,unable to move, for I don't really have a "schedule", I merely survive. It's one day after another, one foot/ step at a time. I would love to have the discipline of looking at a piece of paper with the confidence of being able to run or practice the things suggested on it, all with the end goal of being more fit. I almost envy the people that participate in those "running groups" and don't have to work on the weekends so they can do "long runs". However, what has happened with me and the last two training schedules, is that I find that my work, school, horse and a little social life, all take precedence or that they are unpredictable, so I don't have a "time" when I can get the training in when the paper says to. I find myself frustrated and irritated that I missed a run, or don't have time to fit a long one in, or I need to have energy for work so I can't do the intervals (speed and hills tend to wipe me out). So, I survive. I do what I can when I can and I am learning to just not worry about it. I have this Cascade Lakes Relay thing coming around the corner and of course I don't feel fit enough, but I guess I haven't for the other things up to this point either.
I know that I am burning calories, that I need to do squats, lunges and strength training, I swim or ride a bike around town and I take my dog for walks, all this should count for something. To be honest, I am enjoying myself! My time is getting slower, the distance a little longer and the garmin doesn't rule my life. It's quite nice and I feel much better when I don't get anxious, but just savor the moments and allow myself some rest days. We are all different; we run differently, are motivated differently, our bodies respond differently and we each have our own reasons for doing what we do with our exercise time. I am learning to be comfortable with that and that I don't have to fit in a routine. This is a challenge for me. Most of the time I never feel like I am using what little time I do have to it's highest efficiency and always wonder if I pushed myself hard enough. I am letting go, one day, step, moment at a time.